I've started my Day Zero Project list... and only completed 3 things so
far... with many more in progress. You can check out the links here on
my blog from my homepage.
So I just made out the rent check and now I have runny black ink all over my fingers. Greeeeeaaaaaaat.
Anyways...
this week has kinda sucked and kinda been ok. Monday I got a rejection
letter from the Random House contest I entered that says:
Dear Writer:
Thank
you for participating in the thirtieth annual Delacorte Press contest.
We are sorry to tell you that your submission was not selected as our
prizewinner, though we appreciate your having given us the opportunity
to read it. Because of the number of entries, we are unable to comment
specifically on your manuscript, but we wish you every success with your
writing.
Sincerely
The Editors
Delacorte Press
And they returned my cover letter with that.
Is it because I wrote it when I was 17 and I told them that? I thought they would be impressed.
Is
it because they dont know good writing when they see it? Yeah I think
thats more like it because everyone who has read the excerpt and the
book so far has said its awesome but I havent believed them.
And
another rejection came today... with an email reply from Sprint saying
they're not moving forward with my application at this time. Thats the
third time I've been turned down by them, although the first time I
actually had an interview.
Looks like I may have to resort to working in fast food. Ewwww.
The
only thing thats kept me going this week is my Zachary. He's finally
starting to come around and act like a boyfriend who loves his
girlfriend. He hasn't come right out and told me he loves me yet, but a
couple weekends ago he said "I think I'm falling in love with you" and
said 1-4-3 instead of I love you but I know what he meant.
He has
also been calling me during the week while we are apart, which he has
not done ever, we would only text during the week and see each other on
weekends. And he took me out to Sprint last week for the job fair then
to lunch before he took me to school.
Maybe I'm just stressed
out. I don't know what over besides the fact I cant seem to find a job.
And unemployments going to run out here anytime soon. Got my taxes done
last night and should have those back in a week or two so that takes
care of rent for next month...
I guess Im just sick of rejection. What next?
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Stupid Politics!
So I thought I would get out of watching President Obama's State of the
Union Address because I had class tonight. "The President's on! He's on
every channel!" Which comedian was that... Louie Anderson? I was
relieved I have cable for one night.
Well, that was until I got to class and our instructor told us she was planning on watching it in class if we chose to.
I was grossly outnumbered. 16 people in the class, 14 females, 2 males, and only about 3 of us who didn't care to watch it at all, about 8 who said they would have watched it had they not been in class, and the rest said they wanted to watch it.
So here I sat. Bored out of my mind in the middle of the classroom texting to facebook and Twitter about how much clapping and standing going on. Did everyone seriously have to stand and clap EVERY single time the President said something?
A couple things did make me laugh though... such as when he stated that nobody is going to be denied the right to serve the country they love because of who they love... and the camera showed random dudes in uniform who were NOT clapping. NOT smiling. And NOT moving a muscle. They didn't look too happy.
And also when he said something about how the Interior Dept deals with freshwater salmon, the Commerce Dept deals with saltwater salmon, and when it's smoked its another whole different department!
Yeah I was still bored to no end.
It didn't help that my instructor brought snacks.
Because I don't care about politics. I simply don't care. I don't vote, yet I don't complain about the way the government does things or what's going on in the political world.
And now we have to wrote a one page paper about how what he said will influence our work as social workers.
You know how I think it will influence it? He's talking about cutting spending to community programs.... that's prolly where most of us will be working... therefore many of us will be competing for one job that MAY be available among 3000 people applying for it.
So yeah, what do I think about politics? :P
Give me a damn job now and I'll be happy forever. Until its shipped to India for a robot to do it for a quarter of the price.
Well, that was until I got to class and our instructor told us she was planning on watching it in class if we chose to.
I was grossly outnumbered. 16 people in the class, 14 females, 2 males, and only about 3 of us who didn't care to watch it at all, about 8 who said they would have watched it had they not been in class, and the rest said they wanted to watch it.
So here I sat. Bored out of my mind in the middle of the classroom texting to facebook and Twitter about how much clapping and standing going on. Did everyone seriously have to stand and clap EVERY single time the President said something?
A couple things did make me laugh though... such as when he stated that nobody is going to be denied the right to serve the country they love because of who they love... and the camera showed random dudes in uniform who were NOT clapping. NOT smiling. And NOT moving a muscle. They didn't look too happy.
And also when he said something about how the Interior Dept deals with freshwater salmon, the Commerce Dept deals with saltwater salmon, and when it's smoked its another whole different department!
Yeah I was still bored to no end.
It didn't help that my instructor brought snacks.
Because I don't care about politics. I simply don't care. I don't vote, yet I don't complain about the way the government does things or what's going on in the political world.
And now we have to wrote a one page paper about how what he said will influence our work as social workers.
You know how I think it will influence it? He's talking about cutting spending to community programs.... that's prolly where most of us will be working... therefore many of us will be competing for one job that MAY be available among 3000 people applying for it.
So yeah, what do I think about politics? :P
Give me a damn job now and I'll be happy forever. Until its shipped to India for a robot to do it for a quarter of the price.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Ups and Downs
Grow up.
Sit up.
Stand up.
Shut up.
Heads up!
Wait up.
What’s up?
Knocked up.
Throw up.
Make up.
Break up.
Shake it up.
Keep up.
Time’s up.
Burnt up.
Why do we say “up” when the majority of these phrases actually mean just the opposite?
We usually say “grow up” to someone who is acting like a young child or someone you would look DOWN upon for their actions.
Sit up. They’re already sitting DOWN.
Stand up. Again, they’re sitting DOWN.
Shut up means quiet DOWN. That’s just an all-around put DOWN.
When someone yells “Heads up!” it’s usually best to duck and run.
Wait up… what do you mean by that? Someone has to slow DOWN in order to wait for someone else to catch up.
What’s up? Well, when someone asks me that, I anticipate they expect a DOWN-to Earth reply.
Knocked up. Ouch. Aren’t women on like, bed rest during the latter stages of pregnancy?
And when you’re throwing up, ick. You wanna be anyhere EXCEPT vertical.
Make
up. Could be looked at two different ways. One, the cosmetics people
use to cover what they don’t want people to see, or to make them look
better so no one puts them DOWN.
Two, making up after a break up because you’re so DOWN and out about no longer being with them, which brings me to break up.
It’s the same, only opposite. Don’t you break up because you’re no longer happy with the person or with something they did to upset you/bring you DOWN?
Shake it up. Ya gotta flip it upside DOWN to cover/mix the bottom?
Keep up. We tell someone that when they’re slowing DOWN or keeping us slowed DOWN.
Time’s
up. The time’s not up! It’s DOWN, gone, never to be returned again.
There’s no refund on time. It’s dead. Dead. DOWN. In the ground.
Burnt up. When a structure/object burns up, there’s nothing left. It burned DOWN. Disintegrated into a pile of kindling, unless you’re referring to BBQ.
Well,
then it’s just the way Dad likes it! As he always tells his servers:
When the smoke detector goes off, turn it over. When the fire dept. gets
here, bring it to me!
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Homework Inspiration
Tonight in class we were talking of personal stereotypes and biases.
Also of how laws and norms have changed over the years. We have to write
a reflection paper on something we talk about or learn or discuss in
class every week and it reminded me of this note I wrote on facebook....
from when I was in jail in January of 2009.
I was thinking earlier how I remembered as we drove past the courthouse Austin would occasionally ask what this big building was. I never knew how to explain that to a 4 yr old. The only way I can think to explain it to him is that it's where grown ups get sent for a time out. Nope. He was too smart for that. "The police come and take them away and that's where they put them?" Yeah, that kid's brilliant. Just like his Aunt Holly. Too smart for her own good. And that's why she keeps getting brought back? No. She keeps getting brought back because she's a stubborn woman who has a problem following the rules of society, aka laws/ordinances/statutes/etc.
So this is how it works. As a baby, you cry, you get attention. As a toddler, you begin to explore on your own and learn the dangers of things from your own mistakes, such as touching something hot hurts you so you don't do it again. Unless you like pain, of course. Your parents teach you right from wrong and you answer to them for your wrongdoing. Once in school, you answer to the teacher(s) or the principal. AND your parents when you get home! Talk about double jeopardy! As an adult, you answer to the laws of society and the police officers counted on to enforce those laws. They, in essence, take you to answer to a judge. Once we die, we'll answer to the final judge: GOD. In a workplace setting, we answer to the supervisor/boss and if we don't like what they have to say we can go find one who does. If that boss is breaking the rules, he has a boss somewhere.
My point is this: everyone answers to somebody. Whether or not we like it, whether or not we may even know it. Traffic rules. Rules of the playground. Policies in the workplace. Laws in society. House rules. Landlord's rules. Rules we've instilled into our children for their safety and our sanity. No shoes, no shirt, no service. Codes of conduct. Bylaws. Regulations. Do not. Can not. Will not. Shall not. May not.
So do I have a problem with authority? No. I have a problem with following rules, in turn, having a problem with those in charge of enforcing them. There's a difference. Yeah, I know. Behave and I won't have a problem with the latter. Correct?
LOL I guess it's all in how the individual perceives it.
I was thinking earlier how I remembered as we drove past the courthouse Austin would occasionally ask what this big building was. I never knew how to explain that to a 4 yr old. The only way I can think to explain it to him is that it's where grown ups get sent for a time out. Nope. He was too smart for that. "The police come and take them away and that's where they put them?" Yeah, that kid's brilliant. Just like his Aunt Holly. Too smart for her own good. And that's why she keeps getting brought back? No. She keeps getting brought back because she's a stubborn woman who has a problem following the rules of society, aka laws/ordinances/statutes/etc.
So this is how it works. As a baby, you cry, you get attention. As a toddler, you begin to explore on your own and learn the dangers of things from your own mistakes, such as touching something hot hurts you so you don't do it again. Unless you like pain, of course. Your parents teach you right from wrong and you answer to them for your wrongdoing. Once in school, you answer to the teacher(s) or the principal. AND your parents when you get home! Talk about double jeopardy! As an adult, you answer to the laws of society and the police officers counted on to enforce those laws. They, in essence, take you to answer to a judge. Once we die, we'll answer to the final judge: GOD. In a workplace setting, we answer to the supervisor/boss and if we don't like what they have to say we can go find one who does. If that boss is breaking the rules, he has a boss somewhere.
My point is this: everyone answers to somebody. Whether or not we like it, whether or not we may even know it. Traffic rules. Rules of the playground. Policies in the workplace. Laws in society. House rules. Landlord's rules. Rules we've instilled into our children for their safety and our sanity. No shoes, no shirt, no service. Codes of conduct. Bylaws. Regulations. Do not. Can not. Will not. Shall not. May not.
So do I have a problem with authority? No. I have a problem with following rules, in turn, having a problem with those in charge of enforcing them. There's a difference. Yeah, I know. Behave and I won't have a problem with the latter. Correct?
LOL I guess it's all in how the individual perceives it.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Homeless: Motel Kids
If
you ever get a chance to watch this documentary, DO IT. I got the
chance to watch this last night and it hit me hard close to home. I
couldn't believe the conditions these kids live in and the things they
learn in school.
Basically the documentary
is about families who live in a motel in Orange County California,
across the street from Disneyland. 4, 6, 8 people and pets crammed into a
room. Sadly, it reminded me of the way many of my old friends in the
Dells live, and how the Dells is known to everyone else as a tourist
attraction where those who visit have a hard time realizing people live
there let alone live in motel rooms as families with 4 or 6 people
crammed into a kitchenette unit.
Its the
same way here... people picture Orange County as a tourist location with
Disneyland and the beaches and stuff, but probably have no clue these
families and kids are right there across the street from their
playground.... where the city streets and parking lots for these kids is
a playground.
The video goes on to show
about Project Hope, which is a school for homeless children funded by
the government, but at the end they stated due to budget cuts they had
to let two of their teachers go, including one who was in the video. I
also couldn't believe that these kids were learning about legal and
illegal drugs in 3rd and 4th grade! Is that due to the decay of society
or how much drug activity there is in California compared to Wisconsin? I
don't think I even began hearing about drugs at least til 7th or 8th
grade, except cigarettes.
There were a few
things that made my heart melt tho. Just shows how these kids are so
different... an 11 yr old boy was asked what does home mean to him? And
he replied he really doesn't know what that means. He lieved in a room
with 3 or 4 other children and his mother and 4 dogs.
A
6 yr old in the classroom, when they were talking about living in
America and the "rights" Americans have, this 6 yr old said "I have the
right to remain silent." He's 6!!!! And I'm sure he didn't learn that
from watching the tv show.... This is the same 6 year old when asked
what he wanted this summer, replied "a mansion and all the guns in the
world."
The one thing I DIDN'T like at all
is when the interviewer asked the kids why they thought God would let
them be homeless. I don't remember exactly what the kids replies were,
but it just bothered me that she would ask that.
Anyways,
go check this out if you haven't seen it. I wound up catching it at 2
am on HBO Signature channel this morning and I looked for it on demand
and couldn't locate it... but its a good flick. Moving and
heartbreaking. It made me want to go there and help these kids, even
though I have no clue how.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
I Have a New Love...
And that happens to be....
Karaoke.
You can check out the video from last night here.
I never was much into singing... but this has been fun. I only did it in the quietness of my own apartment singing at the top of my lungs and freaking out the neighbors. Not so much anymore... cause we don't have any neighbors here to freak out :)
My Christmas vacation from school has come to an end :( Go back tomorrow night. Still waiting for one more book, hoping it will be here tomorrow but I have tomorrow's book already... waiting for the book I need for Tuesday night classes.
Christmas break went pretty quick for me. Not really I am bored out of my mind. The job hunt is not going so well either. I spent near a half an hour online tonight applying for this work at home job, went through all the steps then the final step is a test run from your computer to see if its compatible with the system software. After all that time... why don't they do that first? Why waste the time to enter all the information if the only reason you may not get the job is because your computers too stupid? Ay yi yi
Karaoke.
You can check out the video from last night here.
I never was much into singing... but this has been fun. I only did it in the quietness of my own apartment singing at the top of my lungs and freaking out the neighbors. Not so much anymore... cause we don't have any neighbors here to freak out :)
My Christmas vacation from school has come to an end :( Go back tomorrow night. Still waiting for one more book, hoping it will be here tomorrow but I have tomorrow's book already... waiting for the book I need for Tuesday night classes.
Christmas break went pretty quick for me. Not really I am bored out of my mind. The job hunt is not going so well either. I spent near a half an hour online tonight applying for this work at home job, went through all the steps then the final step is a test run from your computer to see if its compatible with the system software. After all that time... why don't they do that first? Why waste the time to enter all the information if the only reason you may not get the job is because your computers too stupid? Ay yi yi
Friday, December 31, 2010
This Cracks Me Up!
I'm watching the movie Home Alone. The first one. A classic Christmas
movie. And of course I turned it on right at the best part.... right
when the crooks find out he's home alone and plan to come back. I think I
have this movie memorized, the video worn out, and I still laugh.
OK so you all know I have been trying to, ok I mean, talking about, getting my book published. The one I wrote when I was 17 and haven't read over in 5 years or so at least. OK maybe 3. So i'm just bored and doing a search online about publishing info, and I come across a publishing contest for first time authors for young adult novels. Exactly what I wrote. Well, I came across this... 3 days ago.
The deadline for the manuscripts to be postmarked.... was today.
Well, should I go for it, or wait til next year. What the hell, I'd pull an all nighter and type the whole book and get it out at the latest possible time.... the final copy of my book is HAND PRINTED hahahaha Harry why the hell you dressed like a chicken? HAHAHAH thats my favorite part
OK so anyway I wasnt looking forward to staying awake for 48 hours staring at my computer screen. When I go look in my documents folder, I found that I had apparently typed it up two or three years ago and the document was somehow still saved in my computer. I looked it over and there appeared to be only the last four pages or so left to be typed, so I finished that up and spent nearly 12 hours yesterday going over the entire thing, editing and editing and editing it again. Then changing names to protect the guilty, then trying to figure out how to write a summary and cover letter.
THEN... trying to figure out how to print it. I don't have a printer... and after calling 3 or 4 printing places last night and this morning to discover that none must be open today since none answered their phone (and one machine even said "we're open when the open sign is on....").
He's gonna call the cops! He's not calling the cops.... from a treehouse?! LOL I remember when I was younger and Mom wouldn't let us watch this movie because Kevin said the word "a**" in that part. LOL Love ya, Mom :)
So I checked out Office Depot's website and saw could upload files from your computer and print there and pick them up.... the only thing was they wouldn't allow an order to go through without putting it on a debit or credit card... they couldn't accept the order with the promise of a cash payment upon pickup....
Then my Daddy calls me last night... said he would come up this morning, figure out a way to get this printed, he would pay for it, and get it shipped. At this time my only option I was looking at is going to the library and printing the 200 pages for .10 apiece. So I called Office Depot and asked if they could print from a flash drive, they said they could and should be done in about 15 minutes if we got there this morning. We were out the door in 5 minutes.
Got it printed with no problems.... two copies, off to the post office... pay for a paddy envelope with delivery confirmation... and we were off for a late breakfast. Postmarked an hour before noon today... when the post office closed.
Nothing like waiting til the last minute!
OK so you all know I have been trying to, ok I mean, talking about, getting my book published. The one I wrote when I was 17 and haven't read over in 5 years or so at least. OK maybe 3. So i'm just bored and doing a search online about publishing info, and I come across a publishing contest for first time authors for young adult novels. Exactly what I wrote. Well, I came across this... 3 days ago.
The deadline for the manuscripts to be postmarked.... was today.
Well, should I go for it, or wait til next year. What the hell, I'd pull an all nighter and type the whole book and get it out at the latest possible time.... the final copy of my book is HAND PRINTED hahahaha Harry why the hell you dressed like a chicken? HAHAHAH thats my favorite part
OK so anyway I wasnt looking forward to staying awake for 48 hours staring at my computer screen. When I go look in my documents folder, I found that I had apparently typed it up two or three years ago and the document was somehow still saved in my computer. I looked it over and there appeared to be only the last four pages or so left to be typed, so I finished that up and spent nearly 12 hours yesterday going over the entire thing, editing and editing and editing it again. Then changing names to protect the guilty, then trying to figure out how to write a summary and cover letter.
THEN... trying to figure out how to print it. I don't have a printer... and after calling 3 or 4 printing places last night and this morning to discover that none must be open today since none answered their phone (and one machine even said "we're open when the open sign is on....").
He's gonna call the cops! He's not calling the cops.... from a treehouse?! LOL I remember when I was younger and Mom wouldn't let us watch this movie because Kevin said the word "a**" in that part. LOL Love ya, Mom :)
So I checked out Office Depot's website and saw could upload files from your computer and print there and pick them up.... the only thing was they wouldn't allow an order to go through without putting it on a debit or credit card... they couldn't accept the order with the promise of a cash payment upon pickup....
Then my Daddy calls me last night... said he would come up this morning, figure out a way to get this printed, he would pay for it, and get it shipped. At this time my only option I was looking at is going to the library and printing the 200 pages for .10 apiece. So I called Office Depot and asked if they could print from a flash drive, they said they could and should be done in about 15 minutes if we got there this morning. We were out the door in 5 minutes.
Got it printed with no problems.... two copies, off to the post office... pay for a paddy envelope with delivery confirmation... and we were off for a late breakfast. Postmarked an hour before noon today... when the post office closed.
Nothing like waiting til the last minute!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
It's Weird How Things Work Out
So this evening when I was waiting for the bus at Wal Mart I was
thinking what was going to happen when our lease is up here or if I
chose I no longer wanted to live with my current roommate, etc. (her
family is driving me insane)
Then I get on the bus and the person who I helped get into the house in Onalaska that I moved out of in July, he was on the bus, and asked if I was interested in moving back into the house, because he's moving out soon and in with his girlfriend and her kids I guess. Or something like that.
Now I really liked this house. It was a decent place for one person or a couple, it had its flaws (as every place does) and I like it. However, rent was within my price range, if I were working full time it still would be... yet its further from school. I could bus to school but would be walking home quite a few miles had I not be able to find a ride, and I'm not sure I want to live in Onalaska again. I didn't like that the heat vents were in the ceiling (heat rises duh!) so didn't think that was efficient and the heat bill killed me last winter.... to the point I'm still paying it off til the end of NEXT month.
Also had to pay the water bill, which was around $100 for 3 months. Yet I did LOVE having a yard and no neighbors to worry about when I cranked my music... I told him if I got a job in the next month or so I would consider it.
Life in the apartment trailer park isnt that bad right now, but I'm so tired of going back and forth... between the parents house and this place and even now I'm living in the building I lived in before when I lived on my own. Yet in otdays world its near impossible to survive on your own without a decent job with near no jobs anywhere. Yeah, yeah, everyone's telling me to go to McDonalds or Burger King but I don't even think they would hire me right now.
I'd rather just get my book published. Thats what I'm going to work on from now on.
Then I get on the bus and the person who I helped get into the house in Onalaska that I moved out of in July, he was on the bus, and asked if I was interested in moving back into the house, because he's moving out soon and in with his girlfriend and her kids I guess. Or something like that.
Now I really liked this house. It was a decent place for one person or a couple, it had its flaws (as every place does) and I like it. However, rent was within my price range, if I were working full time it still would be... yet its further from school. I could bus to school but would be walking home quite a few miles had I not be able to find a ride, and I'm not sure I want to live in Onalaska again. I didn't like that the heat vents were in the ceiling (heat rises duh!) so didn't think that was efficient and the heat bill killed me last winter.... to the point I'm still paying it off til the end of NEXT month.
Also had to pay the water bill, which was around $100 for 3 months. Yet I did LOVE having a yard and no neighbors to worry about when I cranked my music... I told him if I got a job in the next month or so I would consider it.
Life in the apartment trailer park isnt that bad right now, but I'm so tired of going back and forth... between the parents house and this place and even now I'm living in the building I lived in before when I lived on my own. Yet in otdays world its near impossible to survive on your own without a decent job with near no jobs anywhere. Yeah, yeah, everyone's telling me to go to McDonalds or Burger King but I don't even think they would hire me right now.
I'd rather just get my book published. Thats what I'm going to work on from now on.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
The Coolest Icicle I've Ever Seen!
So we got 3 or 4 more inches of snow yesterday, freezing rain on top of
it last night, and it was above freezing and melting today. Took these
pics of the coolest icicle ever seen hanging outside our apartment door
this evening. It has a fork on the bottom.
Heres a pic of the middle where the ridgly parts are neat:
Heres a pic of the whole thing:
And another pic of the cool parts:
And just for kicks and giggles, here's anothr icicle on the other side of the door, that's more than halfway to the ground:
Heres a pic of the middle where the ridgly parts are neat:
Heres a pic of the whole thing:
And another pic of the cool parts:
And just for kicks and giggles, here's anothr icicle on the other side of the door, that's more than halfway to the ground:
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Monday, December 20, 2010
Guest Post from 20SB
As I'm sure Holly here has already mentioned, (I haven't) we're taking
part in the 20sb Blog Swap. Meaning I get to babble on Here on Her blog
and she'll be over on One Red Wall today. So don't forget to head over
and check out what she has to say. Now since I ramble on enough in my
post, I will refrain from rambling in the intro...
The theme this time is Action. Specifically, something I've been putting off a long time that I need to do next year.
GAWD there are so many things. Getting back in shape, getting back to school, paying old debts, making Friends instead of acting all Lone Wolf, all important things. But the first thing that came to mind when I read that?
I need to start saving money to go Bungee Jumping.
I had decided I'd go in 2010 and I just didn't do enough to make it happen. I put it off to the end of the year when my sister could go with us and the company we planned on using Canceled the whole event. Really, I probably wouldn't have been able to afford it even if they didn't since I hadn't bothered to Save for it. It was like I was sabotaging myself. So I failed. And I'm not doing that again. I Am Going in 2011. I Have to.
I know it sounds ... crazy, but I know it'll change my life. Although I know several people who'd be surprised to find out, the truth is that I am a big Chicken. I just fake it. I don't even love Roller Coasters. Yet every time I'm around a roller coaster I go get on the Biggest Scariest one there First thing. I will have a mini-freak out in my head all the way up the first hill and as I start the first drop. But then we start the next climb.
That's when I get over the fear. That's when I start to love it. As long as I take the biggest and scariest first, I'll love all of the ones that follow it. No gradual buildup for me. It's all or nothing. I do that with more than just roller coasters, but I won't bore you with 100 examples.
I know that when it's time to go on that jump, I'll want to go first. And I'll hate it. All the way down I'll probably hold myself pretty stiff and cuss at myself about Why the Fuck did I want to DIE?? And then I'll bounce. And that's what I want. I know that after the Bounce I'll love it. In fact, I'm pretty sure I'll want to go again. I Know me. I really do love doing risky thrilling things, I just let my doubts and my fear get in the way too often.
And that's how I know that bungee jumping will change my life. It's Crazy for someone who doesn't like roller coasters or that Drop ride thing to Yearn to go bungee jumping, but I do. Almost Everyone I've talked to about it thinks I'm Crazy and half of Them say it's too dangerous for me to do since I have kids. Well guess what? I'm more likely to get broadsided while driving my car than die in a bungee jumping accident. And when I conquer that, I know I'll look at other things differently. Maybe that sounds like a lot to put on a bungee jump, but I know it will change how I look at things. Hell, every new thrilling thing does, so why wouldn't bungee jumping do it too?
Technically, it would be easier for me to go skydiving, since there is a skydiving place Right at the edge of town and you can go any day the weather is nice. Maybe I'll do that next. But for now, I'm going to go on the Other side of town and go bungee jumping (did I mention they have a great bridge to jump off of within minutes from my house?). And if they cancel again, I'll just have to bungee jump somewhere further from home. But I Will do it in 2011.
After I go bungee jumping I still have to continue saving. I have a European or Australian vacation to plan for 2012. I've lived in Europe, but I was never able to go Experience it without Parents or School Agendas or something that made my destination and length of stay Not of my choosing. This time, I want to go and Live Life and just take it all in. I'd love to go solo, but I'm a nice wife, so I'll let Husband go on my vacation too if he wants to. He's pretty well traveled and Tired of it so he may choose to stay home.
Of all the thing I know I need to do in 2011, and all the things I know I Will do in 2011... Going bungee jumping and starting the 2012 vacation fund are what I am going to do For Me. I am an older sister, a mom, and a wife, so I have been putting others in front of me for my whole life.
I have bought so many kids toys, and Husband toys... It's about time I took some action and saved money that is only to be used for something for me.
-Kandace
The theme this time is Action. Specifically, something I've been putting off a long time that I need to do next year.
GAWD there are so many things. Getting back in shape, getting back to school, paying old debts, making Friends instead of acting all Lone Wolf, all important things. But the first thing that came to mind when I read that?
I need to start saving money to go Bungee Jumping.
I had decided I'd go in 2010 and I just didn't do enough to make it happen. I put it off to the end of the year when my sister could go with us and the company we planned on using Canceled the whole event. Really, I probably wouldn't have been able to afford it even if they didn't since I hadn't bothered to Save for it. It was like I was sabotaging myself. So I failed. And I'm not doing that again. I Am Going in 2011. I Have to.
I know it sounds ... crazy, but I know it'll change my life. Although I know several people who'd be surprised to find out, the truth is that I am a big Chicken. I just fake it. I don't even love Roller Coasters. Yet every time I'm around a roller coaster I go get on the Biggest Scariest one there First thing. I will have a mini-freak out in my head all the way up the first hill and as I start the first drop. But then we start the next climb.
That's when I get over the fear. That's when I start to love it. As long as I take the biggest and scariest first, I'll love all of the ones that follow it. No gradual buildup for me. It's all or nothing. I do that with more than just roller coasters, but I won't bore you with 100 examples.
I know that when it's time to go on that jump, I'll want to go first. And I'll hate it. All the way down I'll probably hold myself pretty stiff and cuss at myself about Why the Fuck did I want to DIE?? And then I'll bounce. And that's what I want. I know that after the Bounce I'll love it. In fact, I'm pretty sure I'll want to go again. I Know me. I really do love doing risky thrilling things, I just let my doubts and my fear get in the way too often.
And that's how I know that bungee jumping will change my life. It's Crazy for someone who doesn't like roller coasters or that Drop ride thing to Yearn to go bungee jumping, but I do. Almost Everyone I've talked to about it thinks I'm Crazy and half of Them say it's too dangerous for me to do since I have kids. Well guess what? I'm more likely to get broadsided while driving my car than die in a bungee jumping accident. And when I conquer that, I know I'll look at other things differently. Maybe that sounds like a lot to put on a bungee jump, but I know it will change how I look at things. Hell, every new thrilling thing does, so why wouldn't bungee jumping do it too?
Technically, it would be easier for me to go skydiving, since there is a skydiving place Right at the edge of town and you can go any day the weather is nice. Maybe I'll do that next. But for now, I'm going to go on the Other side of town and go bungee jumping (did I mention they have a great bridge to jump off of within minutes from my house?). And if they cancel again, I'll just have to bungee jump somewhere further from home. But I Will do it in 2011.
After I go bungee jumping I still have to continue saving. I have a European or Australian vacation to plan for 2012. I've lived in Europe, but I was never able to go Experience it without Parents or School Agendas or something that made my destination and length of stay Not of my choosing. This time, I want to go and Live Life and just take it all in. I'd love to go solo, but I'm a nice wife, so I'll let Husband go on my vacation too if he wants to. He's pretty well traveled and Tired of it so he may choose to stay home.
Of all the thing I know I need to do in 2011, and all the things I know I Will do in 2011... Going bungee jumping and starting the 2012 vacation fund are what I am going to do For Me. I am an older sister, a mom, and a wife, so I have been putting others in front of me for my whole life.
I have bought so many kids toys, and Husband toys... It's about time I took some action and saved money that is only to be used for something for me.
-Kandace
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